The Feeling of Being Lost

Ugh my life is such a weird mess right now. Well technically it isn't a mess, but I seem to be making it into one. *Sigh* Okay so here is what's going on: I am 25 years old and I still live with my parents. To many people, that is no big deal; a lot of people my age (and older) live with their parents. For some odd reason, however, this is bothering me. I feel like a baby. I really do. And I'm putting myself through a guilt trip because of it. I have gone out and looked at apartments, but the ones that I like are out of my price range and I guess you could say that I'm kind of scared to look at others...maybe it's because I have never lived away from home before (I'm not counting overnight camp or college here) or maybe it's because I'm just...I don't know.

I just feel like it's wrong to still be living at home; I should be living out on my own, but maybe it's my personality or something inside of me that has always said that I am one who needs to be near my parents. Sure I could have stayed in TN when I heard that my dad found a job in Ohio. But I chose to come along. Why? Well one reason is that I have absolutely no family in TN. The other reason? Well I just felt that I couldn't stay in a place that I didn't have immediate accessibility to my parents that I do when I live with or near them. Does that even make sense?

I'm basically lost here and I am scared. Yes I know I probably sound like a baby for being afraid to live away from home or looking at apartments for that matter, but I'm not like my friend who I have known since the first grade. She has always been outgoing and she went to school in Iowa and where did I go? I went to a college that was 20 minutes from my house. I lived in the dorms so I give myself credit for that, but still...I feel like in the past she has inadvertantly mocked me for not living on my own. I heard it in her voice when I told her I was going to Ohio with my parents. But I'm not basing any decisions on what she says or what anyone else says for that matter; I just don't know what to do right now and it's scaring the sh*t out of me.

And if I write anymore, I'm going to lose it.

-Lisa

And We're Off

Today was the first day of preschool. Maybe I should rephrase that: it was the first day of the actual school year. Yeah that sounds about right. I am now working in the Two's Room and I love it already. Sure it's only been one day and I haven't met all of the children yet (some only come on Tues/Thurs and some on MWF), but I have met most of them and they are wonderful. Thankfully I am getting along with both of my co-teachers thus far. Okay so the lead teacher in the room is a bit controlling, but she's not too bad; we like her. :-)

It was of course quite chaotic this morning since everyone was still getting used to their new environment. Some of the children transitioned well from the other room while others had a harder time. It's to be expected, however, especially when you're only 2 years old. To be honest, I was surprised at how well the first day went. The kids really seemed to enjoy being at school and with friends and of course meeting new friends.

I am hoping that the rest of the school year continues to be like this. I know there will be several ups and downs, but in the end I am sure that it'll all work out. :-)

That's about all for now; hopefully I will have some more time this week to write another entry. Until then, bye!

-Lisa

Open House

All right so tonight was Open House at the preschool I work at. It went pretty well if I do say so myself. :-) I got to meet several of the children that I will be working with this year. They are SOOOO cute! I know most of them from last year, so that's good; and I kind of know their parents as well...also good. I guess the only drawback was the fact that I had to work another 12 hour day. Yuck. The good part? I get paid tomorrow!!

Hmm, not much else is going on this week. Oh! I know. My mom thinks that I'm either mad at her and my dad and brother or that I'm depressed. Why you may ask does she think this? Well that's easy. She's paranoid! LOL. So I haven't been in the best of moods this week and haven't told her and my dad every single detail of what is going on in my life. I told her that it's stress and when I get stressed, I tend to get into bad moods. But who doesn't get into a bad mood when stressed? It's mainly over school starting next week and having to have everything in the room ready by Monday.

Oh and I'm supposed to go to the dentist tomorrow, but apparently they called yesterday (the home phone, not my cell) and said that the dental hygentist (I'm sorry if that is spelled wrong) will be on her lunch break during the time that I will have my appointment. My mom didn't bother telling me that they called...so I'm just going to go and hope that they will still be able to see me. *Sighs* Oh well, so goes life, right?

That's about it from me tonight. Oh and I hope you like the pictures of the sunset. I took them from my car this evening while on my way home from work. :-) I'll write again soon!

-Lisa

Long Day

Okay so today was probably one of the busiest days of the summer at work. Not only that, but I am attempting to get over a sinus infection which has been plaguing me for quite some time now and seems to either be getting worse or simply not doing anything; even though I'm on an antibiotic, that doesn't seem to make a difference. Anyway, I nearly passed out at work today from a horrible dizzy spell...in front of my kids! Or my class I should say. It was not fun. Luckily, there was a chair to break my fall so I sat down for a few minutes and took a few deep breaths and felt a bit better.

Then there was the meeting. Every year at the beginning of the school year (the school actually begins on August 28th), we have a staff meeting. Anyway, my director thankfully provided dinner for us, thus saving me the trip of having to go pick something up...not that I would have had time to do so anyway (I work until 6:00, closing time for the preschool and the time when the meeting started). So that was nice; we had Subway and then talked...and talked...and talked about everything from introducing ourselves to policies to discipline, and so on. The meeting lasted a total of 2 1/2 hours. Blah.

So I worked a total of about 12 hours today when I normally work 8 hours a day. At least I'll get overtime pay! ;-)

All right enough whining from me. On the upside, I got a lot accomplished today with the cubbies; I added the kids' names and cleaned the cubbies...pretty darn well if I do say so myself. I am really excited for the school year to start; I will be working in the Two's Room. Last year I worked in the Three's Room (3A to be exact; there were so many that we had to divide them up!) and I realized that there is just too much "drama" with 3-4 year olds! Yes I know they are young, but when one constantly hears "You can't come to my house!" and " took from me!" every few minutes, it just really gets to you. I have noticed when I have been in the Two's Room that the kids in there are 'calmer' in the sense that they don't do the same dramatic stuff as the older kids do. Sure they have their moments, but they are much easier to deal with if you ask me.

Well I am about to fall asleep (it's 11:59 PM here), so I think I shall end this entry. Have a great rest of the week! I'll try to post something else in a day or two.

-Lisa

24 More Hours!

Ah, only 24 hours until the weekend officially starts. I'm happy. It has been a really long week. First off, I got a lovely sinus infection (I'm feeling better now!) and then my kids (in class that is) decided to use this week as their week of "terrorizing the teachers." Haha, just kidding. They weren't that bad.

But still, I am glad it is finally the weekend and that I will be able to relax for two days...well sort of. On Saturday my family and I are planning on going to a mall near Cincinnati that is supposed to be really, really nice. I'm looking forward to that; plus I could use some new clothes! So we'll see what happens in that department. Get it? Department? *Hears nothing but the sounds of crickets* Okay never mind about that.

I'd also like to add that it is my dad's birthday tomorrow! Well, today really, considering the fact that it is 1:00 AM on Friday, August 18th. Anyway, happy birthday dad!!! I hope you like the card I got you. I also got him a DVD set of an old TV show that he used to watch; he loves it so I am happy about that.

Anyway you may have noticed that I actually put a couple of pictures up! Yep, both are of my cat Figaro. And yes that is me with him in the top picture. Isn't he cute? :-) Hmm, I don't think anything else is going on here in lovely Dayton...except for the fact that we might get some rain tomorrow afternoon or evening. But that's not really news so never mind. Okay my excuse? It's 1:12 AM in Ohio and I'm half asleep. Yeah pitiful excuse I know, but oh well! It is my blog after all. All right now I'm just babbling. Well I had better go to bed before I start to sound like a real idiot...hmm...too late. ;-)

Goodnight and sleep tight!

-Lisa

It's Only Tuesday?

All right let me just say that sinus infections are HORRIBLE!!! I started to not feel so hot on Sunday and I thought it was my allergies acting up (after all, 'tis the season for allergies). Well part of it was. Yesterday things got a bit worse as I had a horrible headache and a very sore throat. This morning I could barely move! I called work and told them I would not be coming in and what does my boss say? Instead of saying "I hope you feel better soon" or something along those lines, she said "Call back at noon and let me know if you can come in for part of the day." Yeah. Right. Thanks for being so considerate...grrr...anyway I went to the doctor and hopefully things will be better by tomorrow!!

On to a different topic, my dad's birthday is on Friday, yay! I have no idea what we're doing for it but we will probably go out for dinner or something like that.

Oh and all of my friends are telling me to go rent "RENT." So I think I'll do that over the weekend when I'm not working and not so sick, LOL.

Well that's all for now! I shall write later.

-Lisa

Hello Again

Well it's Sunday. We (my family and I) are going to a picnic today that is for employees of the DJCC and their families so that should be fun. I'll bet you anything that my brother is planning on taking many photos! If so, I'll have him send me a few and I'll try to post them.

Oh yeah, my brother came home yesterday. He'll be here for a week which is nice, considering the fact that I only see him about 3 times a year now. So we hung out in Columbus yesterday and went to a HUGE mall. It was a lot of fun and we got some exercise doing so much walking around.

Let's see, what else can I write about...well there are two more weeks until preschool starts up again. I am looking forward to that; I will be working with the 2 year olds this year. This past year I was with the 3 1/2 - 4 year olds and I am glad to have a change.

Well that's about it for this entry.

Oh and have I mentioned that I am a fan of Lucas Grabeel from High School Musical? If not, well I'm a fan of Lucas Grabeel, lol. Just thought I'd share that little tidbit with you.

Bye for now!

-Lisa

First Post!

Well this is my first post at blogspot.com. I decided that I needed a place to post everything and well, I found one! Anyway, this isn't much I know but it's a start.

So...I guess that's all for now. I'll post more later; perhaps I'll add a picture of myself. Also, make sure to check out my brother's website. He is quite the photographer! I included the link to the right of this where the links section is.

Until then, ttyl!

-Lisa